pester me        RSS    SEARCH

================================================================================

Chemical Imbalance

================================================================================

( Hi, my name is Alyson, and I like to party. )

================================================================================

05/30/2012 16:55:00

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:38:18

me eating mcdonalds

before:YEAHHHHH MCDONALDS WOO
during:YEAAAAHHH THIS IS alright
after:what have i done to myself

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:38:08

herp derp look at my face. 

herp derp look at my face. 

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:33:39

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:32:56

[Flash 10 is required to watch video]

because you needed this on your blog … at night!

(Source: mockingjew, via reed-johnson)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:32:19

javdick:

theninjanamedaly:

I’m retarded, okay? 
Shh.
Also, aren’t you allergic to cats?  

no we just haven’t been talking a whole lot obviously 8(

and yes i am yet i will always love my cat why

BUT NICOOOOLE. 

I… I still think about our skype conversations sometimes. GOOD TIMES.
but yeah. I’ll let you go be allergic to cats and have a naked bird and your awesome canadian dog Cooper.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:20:58

javdick:

theninjanamedaly replied to your photo

COOPER.

yes you butt

I’m retarded, okay? 
Shh.
Also, aren’t you allergic to cats?  

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:19:24
me:tumblr is so depressing.
me:there's a cute relationship i'll never have
me:food i can't make
me:why can't i be that pretty
me:I WANT THOSE CLOTHES
me:wow just bring up those old feelings, thanks
me:why do i even come on here??
me:scroll
me:scroll
me:ooo reblogging that

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:17:53

bowlersandtophats:

elleblr:

villainoustyrrany:

olivemeister:

spintowin:

scienceandrollerskates:

Today, I made some calming manatees, but most of them are the wrong size to go on the site.

Oh well. Would you like them?

Oh my god this is BEAUTIFUL

this manatee is dad egbert/crocker

omfg

sobs, manatee please be my friend

Reblogging for Dani - and for all the warm fuzzy feels this photoset gave me.

Me on most occasions

(via geryonduma)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:17:23

(Source: allerroo, via reed-johnson)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:17:18

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:16:42

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 14:16:31

geryonduma:

ducktumblings:

clockworktardis:

illuminousthoughts:

br221b:

srynoidoncare:

swaggerofa-timelord:

sadness-or-euphoria:

Doctor, this is why I love you. Right here.

Vincent van Gogh was a man who is somewhat famous for his mental instability. He later ended his own life. For the Doctor to go and show him that his art mattered, and that his existence mattered…is amazing. And I wish someone could have shown this amazing artist how much he contributed to the world.

I wish the Doctor could show everyone how they mattered, because everybody does matter. In our own small way, we change the world simply by existing.

Always reblog

One of my favorite episodes ever.

this is my favorite episode ever ohmg

This episode made me cry so much when I saw it. 

As someone who has lived with depression all his life… this episode made me cry. This is what I try to tell people. This what I try to explain when someone tells me they can’t go on. Or that things can’t possibly get worse. Or they want to end it all. 

It is all worth it. Every scintilla of pain, pleasure, experience, sadness, joy, emotion.. Every hurt, every kiss, every hug, every missed moment because you spilled your coffee and now you’ll remember that girl forever because you smudged her number and now you can’t call. Every story. It is all worth it. 


Because if you don’t think that way…

Some days it is just tough to get out of bed and deal with the world. You have to think that way, or you start thinking none of it is worth it. And it has to be. It has to be worth it. And that’s what this sadness is, some days. Most days. For me. Wondering if it is worth it. And saying, over and over again in my own personal mantra: it is worth the wounds. it is worth the wait. it is worth the uncertainty. because life is glorious. and it will be magical because i will make it so. even on days when i’m paralyzed, i have to know that it will get better and I will eventually come out the other side. The sun will come up tomorrow. The planet will rotate. I will travel through the universe thousands of kilometers simply by enduring. And when I stand up again, I will build a life that will, perhaps, to unseeing eyes, seem dim and dull. But I will see the universe in such vibrant brilliance that it will make others weep to read of it.

And I write.

So thank you, Doctor Who. Thank you, writers who showcased this brilliant, tormented man. Thank you, Vincent. You remind me that I’m not alone. And that I must go on. And you let others know that, just maybe, if they tread upon my dreams, that they might perhaps do so in kindness.

I was going to try to expound what this post means to me. How I had to live in silence for years growing up, feeling alone, wishing things were different, wondering what was wrong with me. How I have my good days and bad days. How some days I feel almost normal, and some days I feel like everyone would be better off if I didn’t exist, because there are some people out there who are doing better now that I don’t exist to them anymore.

But there’s no point, really. Because you’ve said it all.

The only thing I can offer is something that everyone who’s fighting depression needs to hear over and over again. Something that I need to be reminded of time and time again. And it’s only fitting that it also comes from a scene from Doctor Who:

You. Are. Not. Alone.

im not a whovian, but this made me emotional.. 

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 11:41:25

zuckerbergin:

congrats to zach braff and donald faison for having literally the perfect friendship 

(via reed-johnson)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

05/30/2012 11:31:02

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

pg 1 of 144

================================================================================

Designed: Robert Boylan
Powered: Tumblr